Pete Davidson, a 25 year old comedian known for his role on SNL, was mostly absent from the last show of 2018 after making a worrying Instagram post Saturday afternoon.

The post read “I don’t really want to be on this earth anymore. I’m doing my best to stay here for you but I actually don’t know how much longer I can last. All I’ve ever tried to do was help people. Just remember I told you so [heart emoji].” And shortly after being posted, Davidson then deleted his entire account.

There has been an outpouring of support for Davidson on social media, even his ex-fiancee Ariana Grande reaching out. 

The NYPD did a wellness check on him and confirmed that he was safe in NBC Studios. The only skit Davidson was featured in was a prerecorded skit, however he was still at the studio that Saturday and made a quick appearance to introduce the musical guest, Miley Cyrus. A source told TMZ that because he missed so many dress rehearsals, he was cut from many skits and that during the show he “stayed in his dressing room for most of the show, wearing pajamas.” Another reported him asking cast members for hugs during the commercial breaks.

Davidson was also absent from the cast party after the show. However, he was seen with Machine Gun Kelly, who had posted, “im in the plane now on the way to see Pete. gonna make sure he’s good, i promise. can’t have my boy in the darkness like that.”

Davidson has been previously diagnosed with a borderline personality disorder, something he has openly talked about before. He has also been open about his struggles with mental health, but in posting an alarming Instagram post, one that was interpreted as potentially suicidal, many took notice and realized it might be a call for help.

SNL producer, Lorne Michaels,  sent Davidson to get help after the posts. Davidson has been to a treatment program before in 2016, but his sobriety only lasted 3 months. Davidson has said previously that he smokes marijuana to help with his Chrohns Disease, a chronic digestive disease.

However, not only celebrities suffer from mental health problems, mental illness effects everyday, real people, too. If you know someone who is suicidal, reach out, talk to them, and check in. And if you are struggling with suicidal thoughts, call the national suicide hotline (1-800-273-8255) or reach out to family, friends, colleagues, and teachers.